My Good Deed

G Bm Em 

I once felt a feeling fully through, though I knew I shouldn’t feel it,

because to act on it I’d be a person who should be slapped into a straitjacket.

So every time it comes around I just let it die inside me.

You said, “I only come around because I just need you to hide me,”

so we knelt in those dead weeds, sticks and sharp rocks cutting into our knees.

And I thought that we would freeze, but there was just too much warm blood in our bodies.

I’m not going to make you take the pills, though you should really think about it.

The fire by which we both were almost killed glowed so beautiful, don’t doubt it

but we have to make a choice now; can we glow without it?

There’s a space I tried to fill, but I’m seeing now I never will.

You fly around while I stand still, until I slowly just get smaller and smaller.

I tried to save a girl I truly loved, and I never would desert her.

When we both found out that I was dreaming of the day I thoroughly could hurt her.

And I saw myself inside her eyes; this shrinking would-be savior

resented her for never needing him and couldn’t wait just to betray her.

So we drove back to her place from the temporary home that we had made,

and I stepped back into the street,

feeling the fullest moment of my life slowly shrink away